FOUR IN THE MORNING ..!!

Four in the morning... !

It's about to shine and a I'm still up...
It's about to be a new day,
But I'm still up.

Its not that's its something new for me.
But they say, when you sleep,
You go into a brand new world.
A world you want to be in.
A world in which everything is just perfect....!

But that world can be drawn when you sleep,
And that sleep is something I lack of now...
Sleep, I thought nobody could take it.
But oneday that "nobody" turned out to be the one.
The one I started dreaming about,
The one I pictured my world around.
The one who was all over me.
The one...!

It's four in the morning and I'm writing this for the one I let go... !!
I let go because,
Now its four in the morning I realize,
I'm not the one for my one...!

It's four in the morning,
Trying to picture a new world.
It's four in the morning and I'm still up...!

Watching the stars shine,
I remember the late night chats we had.
Talks which were senseless,
And so as was our laughter.
The fun time we had,
Now became all the memories.
Never realised time will come with bunch of happiness,
To take away the reason of being happy.
Now that everyone's happy,
But I can't find the reason, why they are...!
They say with time you achieve everything,
But I say people leave with the same time...!
Now that you are gone,
I miss the our late night laughter,
Late night gossip,
The ice cream we shared,
Fight over no. Of pillows who takes,
Fight over mum calling you for work not me,
Fight over every small thing.
But in the end,
Laughter made it all things go right... !

Watching the stars shine,
I'm here writing, and imaging,
How much ill miss you,
When you are gone...
Love you sister...!!

Life and its Drastic Changes... !!

LIFE and its DRASTIC CHANGES...!!

The story of a young girl. She was happy, she was satisfied, she was filled with immense love in herself. All she knew was nothing could go wrong because she believed in her Destiny. She believed that everything that happens, happens for a reason. The Reason she always searched for. Reasons she always learned from. She learned, got over come with things, learned to smile once again, learned to laugh once again, learned to spread love once again.

When things got in track, she thought that now nothing could go wrong, nothing could let her into tears, tears are no more for her. She laughed, she played, she ruled, laughter became her best friend. A best friend she always lacked of. She was the one of the most happiest persons. She had a confidence that there can be no that big reason that could take away her this happiness. she was positive, she was living life to her fullest. She spread Love everywhere.

She was so drawn into happiness, so filled with love, so mesmerized with joy, that Blinded her the evil impacts of staying that way. She was blind in happiness that couldn't see the people she was laughing around would be the people who would back step her.

That was when she lost all her faith, all her belief, all her self... !!

Tired of never ending things, she gave up everything, the trust she gained, the Love she gained, the Positivity she gained, the Life she fell in love with...!!

When everything was over, that was when she said to herself and closed her eyes and given up herself to destiny that,

Never opened myself this way,

Life is ours, we live it our way,

All these words I don't just say,

and Nothing Else Matters...!!

Trust I seek and I find in you,

Everyday for us something new,

Open mind for a different view,

and Nothing Else Matter...!!

Never cared for what they say,

Never cared for games they play,

Never cared for what they do,

Never cared for they know,

and I know...!!

I WISH YOU COULD HAVE SEEN LOVE IN MY EYES...

i wish u cud have seen love in my eyes,
and wish u wud believe when i say,
ur happiness means more to me then any thing else,
and i will keep u happy all night and day.....

believe in my love if ever u do,
with me you will stay forever,
no matter where you may be,
in my heart we will be together.

so when you do make a choice,
do spare a thought for me,
remember that you do have a friend,
who loves u so much,
and will continue doing so till all eternity.

if u do decide to walk away,
dont turn around or u will see me cry,
i dont want yo to leave me alone,
i dont want u to to say goodbye.

though with u i wud like to be forever,
i know there will come a day,
when we walk our seprate ways,
and i wont have much to say.

but when that time does come,
as all thing comes to an end,
i wud like to remember me,
as being more then a friend...

Dear MUM………

I miss you mum,your footsteps still in my ears

The faint voice of yours anklets still around

I feel your presence even in the darkest of the nights

I can't ever forget those chats by the windowsill

The beauty of yours still haunts my eyes

The pleasure of wanting you by my side still high

Yes it's still,still and silent around me

I haven't moved on after you left me

Devastated I am,still living in the past

Trying to relish every thought and sight of yours

My mind is still stuck with you and your smile

Nothing seems to go away all this while

I loved the food cooked by your hand

And the lullabies that you sang when I waited

Didn't realise your worth when you were around

Now I cry when you're gone way too far......

THINKING AND DEEP THINKING...

I made mistakes this year, all of which felt gargantuan at the time—all of which seem relatively trivial now, but are still important, because, most of all, I learned from them. And so the embarrassment of these mistakes is masked by acknowledgment, embracement, and recovery through understanding. Though most of my lessons this year were taught in the form of feeling and fearing and losing and destroying love (of all things) I really think that love is one of the most important emotions to know completely, even though that is often so hard to admit.

But I know this is the best for us because I'm learning. It really is the hardest way but thats the only way. This pain let's me know that I'm capable of feeling. Sadness is the only passion that lets me know there is blood in these veins. I can appreciate everything. Most importantly, I will appreciate my Family.

I'm so selfish. I never cared about anyone except for myself.

I think that sometimes the most difficult person to understand is yourself. As you get older you quickly become more and more aware of all the layers. There are too many layers. There are layers to yourself that feel so normal at one moment and so horrid the next. And that is, in my experience, the most frightening feeling of all: when you wake up in the morning and you can’t remember the person you were last night. You look in the mirror and you can’t recognize the person you’ve seen each time you’ve looked in the mirror over the past nineteen years. Your actions are read back to you and you can’t recall yourself. You are ashamed of yourself.

There's too many question marks that me myself don't know what it is. i need to love myself before i can learn to love anyone else. i have attitude problems and i need to change it before i cause more damage.

i want to be given another chance to make things right. i know very well what i am going to face and the consequences but this is what i want. what's the point of doing So anyway? i want the one special person to accept me for who i am.

this year is just so not my year but it had definitely made me stronger. this is how humans are, we only realized everything after all the mistakes done. this is what makes us human and it takes a lot of courage and i mean a lot to admit your own mistakes.

Fashion Spotlight: Ashley Greene

Vampire vixen—and budding sex symbol—Ashley greene proves she’s a creature of the night in the season’s Gothy lace-and-fur regalia

By Maggie Bullock | July 08, 2010 8:00 a.m.

Photo: Mark Pillai; styled by kate Lanphear

In her now-immortal novel Twilight, Stephenie Meyer describes Alice Cullen, sister of tween dream Edward, as a “devastatingly, inhumanly beautiful” pixie vampire with “obsidian eyes” and an “exquisite, elfin face.” Most actors would rather not admit that casting decisions were based on anything other than their craft, but 23-year-old Ashley Greene—who brought Alice to life in The Twilight Saga: New Moon and this summer’s Eclipse and is signed on for next year’s Breaking Dawn—has no such illusions. “Yes, I’m very thankful that Stephenie Meyer wrote a character that I happen to look like,” says Greene with a laugh. Given the series’ rabid “Twihard” fan base—legions of whom were locked in long before the film’s first scene was shot—if Greene hadn’t been an eerily perfect fit for Alice, the filmmakers would have heard about it. “The fans were already there,” Greene says. “Before they knew Ashley Greene, they knew Alice Cullen, and they all had an idea of how she looked.”

The Jacksonville, Florida, native was still hostessing at the Belmont, a bar and restaurant in Los Angeles, when she got the call about Twilight auditions in 2007. Since then, she says, “I’ve gone from zero to 60.” For Greene, like costars Robert Pattinson, Kristen Stewart, Taylor Lautner, and Anna Kendrick, the vampire phenom has been “more than a big break,” she says. “Every one of us is working like a maniac!”

Though she may be a newbie, Greene is navigating her exploding career with beyond-her-years maturity. “As much as I adore being part of Twilight, I don’t want it to define me,” she says. That means launching a cross-genre attack on the industry, starting with next year’s psychological thriller The Apparition, in which she stars opposite Sebastian Stan (Gossip Girl’s crafty Carter Baizen) as one half of a college couple terrorized by a “presence” conjured in a university experiment. Greene is also testing her comedic powers, joining Olivia Wilde, Hugh Jackman, and Jennifer Garner in the ensemble comedy Butter, which is based on a real-life Midwestern pastime: butter carving. “My character’s father [Ty Burrell] is, like, the Elvis of butter carving in this small town—he is the god,” Greene says.